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A lonely shower..

So my whole life I have been scared to take a shower when I am home alone... Partly because of scary movies, partly because of safety.. I just don't like to shower when no one else is home.. as a Mom someone is almost always home... that being said I can't not have a shower so I got home from work yesterday and as I stepped into the shower one of my biggest fears came into play and not only did I slip and fall in said shower but I also hit my neck/head on the shower shelf :(
Talk about scared! I sat there for so long just thanking God that it wasn't worse, that I was ok and that nothing was visibly wrong... slowly I got up and showered but was scared to go to sleep for the longest because of hitting my head. Made me think about how different life is when you are used to living alone and when you are not.
I've never really lived alone. I became a Mom very young, have always been in a serious relationship and have a million and one friends. A life without other people constantly around is unheard of in my world. I like it that way. I like to have companionship, conversations and people to share life's moments with. Not because I need to be constantly talking or doing something with someone else. Plenty of times where I am in the living room with the kids in their rooms doing their thing or I'm in my bedroom watching a movie while the man of the house was playing video games.. now tho, its summer, all the kids are off elsewhere, no man of the house here so I shower alone and worry..
Part of me rationalizes all of this and I know it was an isolated incident thats not likely to happen again, another part knows that because I was so worried about it happening I attracted that negative into my life. Lesson from this- Be prepared for things to happen but don't focus on the negative always unless you want that ish to actually happen!

O and if you were wondering, yes I still hurt BUT I am ok :) So now I will be more careful but I will ALWAYS keep my phone with me just in case!

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