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Dreams and doubts...

Lately as I find myself hosting more and more events I have really found that this is something I should have been doing long ago. When I first started in this industry I was always behind the scenes.. behind the camera.. behind the print.. behind the promo... behind the artists.... well you get the point. I love music, always have. Its a major part of who I am.. Music sets moods, tells stories and eases pain. It allows people to express themselves, showcase their talent and change lives. To say I am thrilled to have a part in all of this is an understatement.

When I first started in this business I'd watch the hosts come in, hit the stage and control the flow of the event. I wanted to do that. I wanted to be that person yet I held myself back. I let myself believe that I didn't deserve that spot on the stage. That I wasn't thin enough, pretty enough, known enough... I doubted myself and as long as I doubted myself how could I ever expect anyone else to have belief in me?

I can't really recall the exact changing point. As I was working on the radio I would briefly hit stages to talk about things and loved the feeling I got as I held that mic and spoke to the crowd. Everyone turns to see what you have to say, wanting to know what's next. I just loved it. I felt at ease. I hosted my first event on a Saturday in May in Atlantic Beach... I had some of the best artists from the city including a national act hit the stage and I just felt at home. It was over a year before I hosted another full show again but it took off from there.

Because of my doubts I missed time, opportunities.. while I am pushing forward now and things are really going well I can't help but wonder what if? What if I'd started hosting a long time ago? Where would I be now? I need everyone out there to know you can't hold yourself back. There will be plenty of people in this world trying to hold you back, prevent you from greatness, trying to outshine you. Why would you allow yourself to be another one? We are our worst critic but if you stop doubting yourself there is a whole world out there waiting for you. Come join me :)

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